April Buske

Clomid, a magical pill that helps my ovaries produce extra follicles. The normal protocol is to take doses on days 3-7 of your period and by day 14, bam, lots of little egg-containing follicles that are ready to burst, propelling those little eggs right down your fallopian tubes.

But here’s the trouble with Clomid – every person reacts differently to it.

I turn into 50 shades of emotionally unstable while taking those tiny white pills.

Read that again: I turn into 50 shades of emotionally unstable while taking those tiny white pills. My poor hubby doesn’t know whether to run and hide from me or hand me a tissue. He quickly figured out the answer changes breath by breath.  It sounds dramatic, but it is. Typically, I’m a rational, logical person who makes facts-based decisions, often with a spreadsheet to navigate the details.  But with Clomid, I turn into an angst-filled teenager whose hormones dictate every moment of every day.

Now, Clomid is typically allowed to be taken three cycles in a row and then you have to take a month off. There’s probably a rational and sound medical reason for making you take that gap month. I, on the other hand, believe fully that it is to give my husband a break from a wife that cries at all the commercials, even the really stupid ones. One that keeps snapping and getting angry at things that don’t even make sense.

The weirdest part: my rational brain still knows that the commercials are stupid and the things that upset me are trivial and don’t matter. But I cannot control the emotions. It’s pretty messed up.

Some women take Clomid and nothing happens. I take it and turn cray-cray.

But, I put up with it because the medication works so well. I have no problem working through the craziness because it is effective. My ovaries produce the desired amount of follicles with Clomid. It’s reliable and effective. And, at this point, I’d do next to anything to get pregnant. Clomid is just one of those crazy things I’m willing to put up with.

What would you put up with to achieve the thing you want most?